Do you remember the dreams you had as a little girl? The great things you were going to do? The places you were going to go? People you were going to meet?
As my hard marriage became even harder, my dreams started dying. Little by little, the things I wanted to do slowly drifted away. By the time I went through my very difficult divorce and custody battles, I felt as if I was far, far from the little girl who dreamed big. In her place was a shell of a woman, who had forgotten how to even laugh.
Do you remember the story of Joseph in the Bible? He had dreams. Big dreams. And those dreams were so big, that his own brothers wanted him dead! In fact, they went so far as to throw him in a hole and sell him into slavery. But, he eventually became a servant in a big home. Not such a bad gig for someone who's a slave! However, the woman of the house didn't get her way and Joseph ended up in prison, forgotten. In that prison, he still did well. Imagine that! Eventually, Joseph did get out of prison, by interpreting a dream. He saved Egypt from starvation…and in the end, he even saved his own family.
I've read the story of Joseph many times. I've wondered what he thought during all these events. Did he feel like giving up at times? What did he think when wall after wall was erected in front of his dreams?
I may never know the answers to these questions, but there is one thing I can't get past! God never forgets the dreams He has placed inside of us! What seems like eternity to us, is just minutes in heaven's time!
Those dreams are seeds. And seeds have to be buried in order to grow. They may seem dormant, but underneath, where no one can see, things are happening! The dreams are sprouting roots and spreading in the soil. Eventually, they break through to the surface.
I know single moms would never trade their wonderful children! We love them and want to raise them to be amazing adults! But, the hurt and brokenness that brought us to the point of parenting single, seems to have buried with it all the dreams. However, while we are raising our children, God is working on those things that seem lost and gone.
I remember when I started dreaming again. As a young wife, I dreamed of doing a mission trip in the Middle East. After my divorce, I felt that dream was just a figment of my imagination. But, then I was reminded of this quote that I had handing on my wall as a teenager.
"…and all dreams are not false, some are truer than the truest facts…let the dreamer only do the truth of his dream, and one day he will realize all that was worth realizing in it - and a great deal more and better than it contained." (George MacDonald, 1889)
I found a group doing ministry in the Middle East and I started volunteering with them as I could. You know, once a year at their partner meeting. Then, to stuff envelopes for a newsletter. Then, they posted a mission trip to Beirut. No way! Life was crazy! But….I couldn't let this trip go. It just kept stirring inside of me. So, I gave in. I filled out the application. And six months later, I was on a plane to Beirut. And my dream contained so much more than I could've dreamed! I went to Egypt and England just a few weeks ago. All mission trips! All doing things I thought would never happen! Those seeds I thought were dead, sprouted.
What are the dreams you have inside of you? It doesn't have to be a mission trip in the Middle East! Maybe it's opening a coffee shop! Or designing dresses on Etsy! Or planting a big garden and living off the land. Whatever dreams you have are important to God! So, while you're changing diapers and making cookies for the class party, keep smiling. At just the right time, those dreams will start coming true. Just start where you come! Hold onto those sweet dreams, momma!
By Gwendolyn Irene
Daring Adventures of Single Parenthood, A Devotional. https://www.gwendolynirene.com/books/